Sometimes, when I'm running an RP and sorting through terrible, terrible applications from people who don't even bother reading the rules and I keep tweaking the board to try and get people to join and yet no one ever does and all my players seem to be too scared to even tell me when their application is finished, I begin to wonder why I got into this habit to begin with.
And then, I see a profile that may have a few oddly structured sentences here and there and is pretty damn average, but has so much potential and willingness to improve.
And, suddenly, all is right with the world.
I guess it doesn't take much to make me feel good, does it. Maybe that's why I RP. Even the littlest rewards make me make these "I am very happy" blog posts.
Our family got a coffee pot! Now I can drink coffee whenever I want!
I also got a scholarship worth a minimum of 16k a year to a college I don't really want to attend but I might because hey 16k a year!
NaNoWriMo is almost over and I'll get back my life pretty soon!
Life is good!
Today, my mom almost went to the local fitness center, but she ended up too busy to fit it into her schedule.
Today, a shooting occurred at that same local fitness center. I think six are dead right now; about nine more are wounded.
You hear about these random acts of violence all the time, but they seem so much more real and horrible when they could have changed your life.
Sorry I've been posting every day. This is just something that really frustrates me whenever I see it and I saw it so MINI-RANT.
Japanese culture is pretty rich. When you base a story in Japan, there's a whole lot you can write about based on culture and setting alone.
So why is it that in 98% of stories written by people my age based in Japan include at least one character who is completely addicted to anime and/or one character who aspires to be a pop artist and is totally into visual kei?
I know the answer myself: they did not do the research, and thus created some weird pseudo-Japan where everyone loves ANIME and MANGA and GIRUGAMESH.
(It's not just stories based in Japan, either; usually any Japanese character who shows up anywhere is going to be like this.)
-The reason that my ratio of male to female characters is insanely large is because I can't write female characters that are not emotionally secure. I just realized this today.
-I seem to have come down with insomnia lately. I'm lucky if I get four hours a night.
-I wish I had more friends I could really talk to about my writing.
-I'm paranoid that no one's really interested in my creative works.
-Especially ones that aren't about a colorblind mute.
-This journal wasn't supposed to be angsty, but I guess it kind of is.
-I need to cheer up.